The Dark Hole of Despair

It’s confession time.

I haven’t worked out in well over a week. All of my positive exercise habits have stalled and I find myself consorting with old demons. The Pandora bracelet I was using as inspiration no longer motivates me to keep going. I am in a deep, dark hole and I’m struggling to get out.

There. I said it.

When I told my friend Rhea that I wasn’t sure what to write about, she told me to just be honest. “Everyone at some point loses motivation. People will appreciate your honesty when you admit that you’ve lost yours.”

I have an idea of what might be fueling it, but I know what I have to do to get past it. In the meantime, bear with me.

What Motivates You?

IMG_6462I’m 10 miles approaching my 60 mile reward.

A few weeks ago I decided I needed something to commemorate my achievements with something special. I’ve always wanted a charm bracelet, but I knew it would be a bit of a splurge so I waited until I truly found a reason to treat myself.

When I began running, I realized this would be a perfect time to celebrate with a little reward when I met my first goal of 30 miles. So on Friday January 16, I decided to go to the Dallas Galleria Pandora jewelry store on my lunch break.

I already had an idea of what I wanted. In fact I had customized my bracelet online and printed out a list. When I arrived at the store, my vision was dazzled by all the shiny charms and snake rope charm bracelets and by the time I walked out there, I had already spent twice the amount of what I was originally wanting to spend.

Did I regret it? Not at all. When I looked down on on my right wrist and saw the sparkle of those pink crystal hearts, knowing I would add a charm for every 30 miles, I knew it was the start of something special.

I purchased the limited edition Valentines Day bracelet set from Pandora Jewelry.
I purchased the limited edition Valentines Day bracelet set from Pandora Jewelry.